Tuesday, August 09, 2005

LoSiNg mYseLf...

"jie...u got no life arh? always never see u hang out...sooo unsociable!"...tis is wat my bro told me...kinda sad by this remark...cos memories kept flowing back...the times when I was quite popular with all my good friends around me...crapping & gossiping...but now...i seemed to be losing myself...cos almost everyday...i'm hiding my true self...and tis true self is at the verge of vanishing...haiz...who can save me? i really had no life...no excitement...it's like sooo sian...my mum always nagged at me...saying tat jc only 2 yrs...shld pia...but...hello...i cnt even pia for a whole day...2 yrs? forget it...smtimes...i really envy my old frens...reading their blogs made me realise how boring my life is...cos they had a bunch of outgoing buddies...many interesting happenings...it's not tat i dun have...but jus cldnt find the "connection with my frens" tat i am seeking for...my true self chose to remain discreet when i'm with them...tat's nothin i can do...smtimes...i juz hate my bro...cos i'm jealous...y he can be popular in class? i'm juz like a small fly in class...i miss the feeling of being appreciated...maybe tat's y i like to stay at home...becos only at home...i can be myself...i can remain in my own fantasy....i'm losing my drive...haiz...
forgive me if i dun say hi to you when i see you...it's not on purpose...cos i dun wan to be ignored...get wat i mean? i bet many of us do meet with situations when u say hi to the person and he/she simply did not noe ur existence...so i decided not to make the first move...hahaz...i am a shy gal...so dun think tat i am "tao" hor...
i really want to go and watch the ndp...but always failed to get the tickets...partly...my parents had no intention of bringing my bro and me to go and watch...they prefer to stay at home and watch...(no need to squeeze mahz...)but i believe tat the atmosphere will be much better at padang & the heartlands...and i want to get the goodie bag!!! last time...i used to see the real firewrks at my old condo...cos i live in the 10th floor...the view was really good...but now...i stay on the ground floor...cnt even see anything...so sickening...hmmm...i decided to go and watch ndp next year...i'll try my very best to get the tickets...so who wants to go with me next year??? :)
i think i'm really moving house soon...maybe by the end of tis year...cos my parents actually paid the deposit of the house they chose...the house is bigger than my present house but the location really sux...i'll still be staying around the same area...juz a bit further down...and the bus stop is like soooo far from the house...have to walk a long route...arGH!!! the only gd thing is tat the house will undergo renovation...hehehz...i can renovate my own room...cool...i juz have the perfect design in mind...hehez...
hmm...have to blog off now...need to study for 2 tests (chem&bio!!)...dun worry abt wat i typed earlier...u noe...my recovery rate is high... :P
*HaPpY bELaTeD bIrThDaY to SiNgApOrE!!!
*recently...i am crazy tis song..."No Strings Attached" by NSync...really very nice...shld hear it... :)

tat's it at 11:36 PM

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